The girl spent the afternoon writing two letters. They were addressed
to
the child that she once was and
the woman she will one day become.
She recognized in this gesture a desperate appeal for help. To the
child she wrote about the pain of adolescence and her obsession with
death, but after all there is also the joy of being and the
boisterous freedom of life. To the woman she described her fascination
with a boy in the most vivid language she could master. She wrote about
the overwhelming desire to deliver her self into his power and her
innermost sense of emptiness that cannot be overcome except by
surrendering herself to an idolatrous love. She will see him tonight. She wanted
this day to be remembered.